plate spinning

It's appropriate that i have such amazing views of London from my flat, because what i've been doing these past 4 months, on a social level at least, is viewing life from the other side of the glass. I know it's all out there for me, because i see it, and i wonder, if when money is no longer an issue, i will set myself free or remain in a self-imposed position of static.
At work, I have a padlock with which to secure my belongings in the lockers. On my days off, i see that lock and key, swimming around in my bag, and it is so symbolic to me. A lock that i have the key to. A jail that i can walk out of any chosen day. When i leave that job, i will throw it in the river, any river will do.I am euphoric when i realize that these are my last few months of retail artistry-EVER. The old me would just see the long days of drudgery, allowing petty nitpicking to get to me in the meantime...but i am glowing with all that is to come.
My life is fat with promise.