closing

So another year comes to a close, and I am astonished at the difference in how I felt this time last year, and how I feel now.
I'm gearing up for what will be my biggest year so far in my career, of that I'm certain.
THEN, I worked at a place I loathed, my heart was in pieces, I missed Atlanta and my friends, I didn't exercise, ate okay, but not great and I was so so lonely and empty.
NOW! My goodness....I LOVE my career, my heart has never been more whole, I have new friends, but have stayed in contact with the people who I love, I can't imagine my life without Yoga, I have begun to practice more meditation and I am healthier than I have ever been. Yesterday I made myself a banana, apple, kiwi, blackberry, pear and mango smoothie. I know it may sound like just fruit to y'all, but every time I peel that fruit and juice it, each time I finish a Yoga class, every time I make it to therapy, I KNOW that I'm honoring myself. Its like the shampoo commercial-because I'm worth it!
I feel more like myself than I have ever felt before. And I celebrate that. I celebrate it.

Late night phonecalls rarely bring good news.
My mother just came downstairs at almost midnight, sat on the adjacent sofa and told me that her older sister had died of a massive heart attack. Hands in her lap, she looked about 10 years old but with grey hair.
There's nothing like death to put things into perspective, to make you appreciate life.