Birthday smooches

Made it through a long 36 hrs of part time gig until gone 2am sleep for 6hrs, shoot all day, then straight to work again.
Here I am past midnight in a candlelit bath, lavender bomb fizzing away, tho I won't need any sedative tonight.
Today was weird. I definitely didn't feel appreciated in what I was doing, makeup wise, or timewise.
Which, considering I had given up my Sunday, and it was unpaid, I was a little put off by.
Still, having 'Ross' from friends, act as the photographers assistant for an hour, put a lovely surreal spin on it. REALLY. Ross. From FRIENDS.
The singer that I worked on, showed up an hour late, wearing last nights makeup, with glitter all over her, hair matted and a portion of her scalp sprayed green.
Which all would've meant nothing, if she'd only bothered to say.
Thankyou.

My birthday is over. Despite my jollying it up, it was still a bit sad, and my back pain was awful, the only thing making me feel old in an otherwise 12 year old state of mind.

I went for acupuncture today. Sitting, being questioned, i look past towards the clock thinking...i don't even LIKE needles. Why am i here again?...But it was fine. Not painful, not life changing. Just fine.

I feel as if wondrousness is coming again.

Reach!

"Why not go out on a limb? Isn't that where the fruit is?"

-- Frank Scully

Today, do something that intimidates you.
Make that phonecall, knock on a previously closed door, reach out to that person, do something alone, try something new, forgive somebody you never thought you'd forgive.
Stretch yourself, and feel that exhilaration.

Yesterday, i did a shoot, and i finally stepped out of my comfort zone, and created something that came from my heart; it flowed and blossomed, took shape before me. And when i saw the images, i knew that, in that instant, i had upped my game.
What a great feeling.

hungry anyone...?

Here I sit at the top of this grassy hill, a place to think, and to feel the sun on my skin. Like Maria said, this park is an unused mecca in this urban North west London sprawl. There are none of the usual park vagrants, the shiftless and the alcoholic who make the park their summertime hangout. Only me and the breeze. Its perfect.

Happiness is...

...A goats cheese and fig chutney pizza from Waitrose...

...Taking my own sweet time around the food section of M&S, whilst snacking on a lemon and white chocolate muffin, discovering that they have added an oozy lemon injection, to the centre of it.
Heaven...

...Leaving the house to run errands wearing only tinted moisturiser becoz I finally got some sun, and am tahitian again.

...Anticipating the delivery of an external hard drive and new printer
and scanner...

...Having an offer withdrawn but being offered something even better an
instant later...

...the brilliant shade of apple green that adorns the turrets of the
islamic temple

...nothing to do on a sunny day but feel good.

June is my birthday month. Usually, I dread it as another flag signalling all I have not yet accomplished. This year is different. THIS year, is the year I discovered The Secret. So. June is a month of 30 days of Joy.
Every day, I will recognize the joy and beauty in my life, I will seek it out and give thanks for it.
Because, after all...
how lucky am I to be alive?!!!